I woke up this morning with feelings of judgement and condemnation about myself. It's weigh-in day. I am not happy with my weight, yet my behaviour has yet to change. But does judging and condemning myself cause my weight to magically be lower? My body size to magically be smaller? No, it just makes me feel bad, so that I'm both podgy AND unhappy. Why be both? What good does it do to condemn myself?
The Ace of Cups card reminds me today that from within myself I can bring forth the bitter waters of Marah, or I can offer myself sweet living water. The card shows the hazelnut and salmon, which are Druid symbols of wisdom. There is a type of wisdom that comes from the inner spring of love and acceptance, and of course that love and acceptance must start with the self. Funnily enough, I am reminded that one of the best ways to love and accept -- to feel good about-- oneself is to take the focus off oneself. So today's card reminds me of two things: 1) offer myself kindness and acceptance, but more importantly, 2) send that love and acceptance outward to others today, and by default I will find myself feeling better inside. The water flows outward from the cup to all the world. It doesn't just well up inside the cup and stay there.