Wednesday, 1 July 2015
Cool me off, lady
It's the Queen of Cups today. I tell you I wish I were sitting in a chair in the midst of the wash and spray of the sea! It's too hot here -- we hates it, we hates it, we hates it forever! Today it is meant to get up to 30 C (that's 86 F). Now, I know where I come from, this is the temperature in late March, but I don't live where I come from anymore and furthermore virtually no one has air conditioning (including my workplace) and it is too hot! I hope this heat wave passes quickly. Me no likey, not at all.
Anyway, today's watery Queen of Cups reminds me to exercise some compassion and empathy today -- and that includes for myself. Tempers could fray in this heat, especially mine. Yesterday for example, I had a bad moment when I learned that a course I've gone on is incomplete, that I not only have one more paper to write for it, but I also have several papers that need revision. My first instinct was to just say, 'Screw this' and tell them to fail me. After all, earning this certificate will have no effect whatsoever on my pay or my position. When I signed up for this course, my colleagues all said, 'That sounds like a lot of work for nothing,' and guess what. It's turned out to be a lot of work for nothing. I can say it's for personal growth, but right now it just feels like a big bloody inconvenience and burden, a whip I made for my own back. So, I could do with some cool, watery thoughts from the Queen of Cups to help me explore my emotions and get them under control so I can make a rational decision about what to do. I wrote to the company and asked if I could have an extension until the end of November, and they are okay with that. So maybe after the rush + short staff of summer is over, when the weather is back to normal, I will feel more like dealing with doing something I hate -- facing the fact that I have not performed 'perfectly' and work has been sent back to me with RED MARKS to do over. (I hate not getting things right the first time.)