Bloom and grow

Goddess Guidance Oracle (Doreen Virtue)

Yesterday when I put the 'I am not a victim' card on my altar, I decided to put up some goddess cards on either side of it, and I started going through my decks looking for goddesses that expressed what I wanted to express, strong ones like Pele. But then I decided to just ask for the ones I need. To my surprise I pulled these two.

Aphrodite: 'Awaken the goddess within you through dance, self-care, and appreciating your divinity.' 

This morning, I actually did some yoga. Twenty-five minutes of sun salutations. And while I was doing them, I literally was not worried about pushing myself or following a DVD, or talking to myself about how much fitness I've lost, or looking forward to a day when my flexibility would be better, or trying to remember the Sanksrit mantra for each move. I just did sun salutations.

Aeracura: 'You are just getting started, so have patience with yourself and the process and do not give up.' 

I think this card is much deeper than the literal. Mastery is not the point. I will always be 'just getting started', we all always be 'just getting started', so why not let up on ourselves. Do things without judgement, without seeking, without reading loads of books and making lots of rules and imposing expectations and restrictions on yourself.

Yesterday I said that I felt as fragile as something freshly hatched from the shell. Could it be I'm emerging into a new era,  maybe it has something to do with my approaching 50s, I don't know. I have let go of most of my accumulated tools over the last several months. I don't need them anymore. I don't need systems, I don't need all this folderol. Just freshness, clear space, and patience with myself.