Friday, 25 April 2014

Fingers crossed

I'm really glad it's Friday, but I feel like crap. I'm tired and feel unwell. I look like warmed over death, too. Such dark circles under the eyes.

There's a meeting today that will help define the functions of my role in my new job. I hope that it is a productive meeting and that I get an outcome that I can live with for the next 10 months. I'm very happy that my head of service is attending the meeting; he will go to bat for the role (not necessarily for me personally, but for the role.)

I am hoping that the 'wishes fulfilled' today will be a good outcome from the meeting and for me to feel better. I'm really tired of feeling ill and anxious.

This 9 of Cups is the traditional RWS image, with a brown patina and the 'distressed' borders of Deck of the Bastard to make it look old. To be honest I'm not sure how successful the deck is in looking old. It looks like a new deck trying to look old, but that's okay. The creator has included the title of the card on the side, and key words on the top and bottom. Interestingly, she has put upright and reversed meanings. I think her choices of key words are succinct and insightful, and, much to my liking, they rarely stray from modern tradition.

So...what can I do today to increase my happiness and positively impact my future? Sigh. I can stop focusing on things that do not satisfy, or ways in which I am unhappy, and focus instead on my blessings. That is so easy to say and so hard to do sometimes, particularly when you are feeling physically ill and emotionally out of kilter.

1 comment:

  1. It's a strange deck, in that the edges look like a card within a card. I've never used it so I don't know how it is, but I must confess to finding all of this trying to make something look old when it is not a bit tiresome. I remember people talking about how to do that on forums years ago - sandpapering their cards, wrapping them on tables, tea-staining them and putting them in the oven. I guess people feel more authentic with something which looks seasoned (even if it isn't). I have found that having an old-looking deck doesn't make you a better reader though (not you personally, Carla, lol). For many, it's all about aesthetics and looking the part, rather than just getting down and reading any old deck. Believe me, my first RWS is brown and greasy and clunky and the edges are gritty. I used to clean it but now I just use a new one. It got like that from so much attention. That's all a deck really needs to become worn.

    Hope you are feeling better and all goes well with the meeting.

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