Square of 9: Postmark (When mama ain't happy, ain't nobody happy)

I've been so tired lately. I don't mean just tired, I mean feeling like my limbs are weighed down, and my eyes are burning, and when I do start to fall asleep, it feels like I'm sinking down underwater, and when I wake up, I am still tired. My diet has not been optimal lately and I have lacked the will to do any kind of exercise. So I thought I'd do a draw to see what might be going on:

Postmark Lenormand, Melissa Hill

I selected Tree as my health significator. I read a square of nine by starting with Card 1 as the Key Theme. Then I read 1+9, 3+7, 2+4+6+8.

I suppose one source of my tiredness could be isolation. The Garden suggests I need to break out of a rut, do something new. Hopefully my trip to London this weekend will help wake me up. Then reading the other combinations, I see a suggestion of socializing with other women of my age. The Cross/Man combo shows that this issue is worrying my husband. And the final combo suggests that I do some reading about a cloudy sexual health issue -- I bet this is a menopausal symptom. Time to visit the women's health section of the library.

(I've been thinking about the Fox from those previous draws. The Fox, for me, could represent overthinking. 'Outfoxing' myself. It's worth remembering.)

I also drew a goddess card from the Goddess Oracle by Marashinsky and Janto: Oya. She is the goddess of Change, and the companion book says:

'Have you been too busy, too stressed, to attend to the changes needed in your life to nurture yourself? Is change so fearful a concept that you push it aside, play hide-and-seek with it, or just ignore it? Have you arranged your life so perfectly that you have no room left for potential? Time for change. Perhaps you are in the midst of the Change (menopause) and arehaving trouble accepting it. Resistance to change brings more persistent change. Choosing to dance with change means you will flow with it.'

Some of that applies to my situation. I'm just not sure what the advice to 'enter deeply into change's chaotic dance' actually means. I just know I feel weary at the very thought of 'chaotic dancing'. Even the whirls of Oya's robe just make me think of snuggling up in a fuzzy blanket.